February 2012
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allisonbrooke93 asked: hey, this is Allison....uhm I've only read like 3 poems but you are truly amazing.
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So You Say, Eh?
So you say your something special? so you say your worth it? what’s worth it ever had to do with special?
what’s your idea of what’s happening? what your reason for guessing? for thinking for being
so shall we acess your ration? can I help you as you ponder your existance
will you be a thoughtful regret a regretful thought, a regret even thought of?
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Opening Up...
Sleep easy sleep steady sleep with regret and with solace take a second look at what I am under these sheets with a knife wound the size of an anvil in my chest pouring out vapors the color of dusk a multitude of dark shades arranging in a streamlined version of my fears if you look directly in my eye’s do i scare you warm you or am i you? Do I know who you are just because you are me do I see...
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A Problematic Response to an Undeserving Situation...
Tell me a secret something that i don’t know because if all of this time you’ve been telling the truth then I have alot of thinking to do I’ll admit I am a overly trusting person or at least would be if I actually believed a word anyone said But I play the games force my famous fake smile on anyone and everyone who’s unfortunate enough to give me the time of day Let’s face it It would make a lot...
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The Proverbial JellyFish
And I’m back to feeling sick I feel so done so empty or not full. how ever you put it I’m feeling it I am the proverbial washed up jellyfish on the shore of what’s to come I guess what’s really scary is to know that no matter what i do I won’t be happy I think the reason why it’s been so long since I had written is because I had forgotten that happy is just out of my reach always will always has...
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ColorMe Green
slit my thoughts and digest me in your gaze you’re mind is like a poison mine the harbinger of you disease just point me in the right direction I know you find my ties more then a little flammable you’re lust for fire has never more dangerous then right now since you’ve laid it out for me I might as well take it follow your path which leads to my death locked up in your stare our...
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ColorMe Red
lock me up in your room let me know your insides oh the joyous occasion where our lips touch, our tongues collide take me to your bed i’ll get lost in your sheets lipstick covering my senses my vision blurred red show me your’ secret what’s hidden beneath your clothes and I’ll wait because it makes it all that much better I’ll stick to my boundaries Bound to a bed by desire Tempt me with a tease...
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ColorMe Aventurine
i never realized before just how annoying it is the have someone like you when you only want to be friends I’ve played this card before I’ve done it so many time but now that the tables are turned The familiar game, seems of a different kind I really don’t quite get this One thing which I though I was so sure but that’s why life’s a lesson why it’s something to...
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ColorMe Jade
I can’t help you I’m sorry I wish I could but I can’t I don’t have the attention time or patience to help everyone who looks to me everyone always does always has probably will but I wish you wouldn’t I am not your friend I am just a man who knows how to feel I’m not your friend I’m not your lover I’m not your family five lines I never thought would hit home so hard mean so much I love you oh so...
January 2012
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ColorMe Lavender
So it’s started again my desire to feel your lips your gaze telling me you want me you need me I’ve begun again to whisper your name when no one’s around day dream on fancied romances And the parts of your body that remain foreign I feel this love I’ve cast away with such hate so many times but it always returns I want you out of my head I know you’ll just fuck with...
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ColorMe Black
And with the twisting of a knife it all commences a regret, a longing or wish that something which happened did not I’ll sit here in the middle of the night clasping on to my knees searching for that protective glove waiting more than anything for it all to be over for a sacrificial thrust doing to me what I never could for myself and the funniest thing is I’m not even sick it’s all in my head...
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ColorMe (Your Deepest Darkest) Red
Being happy is overrated It truly is at least now seems to be my reality But, if this is how i feel, perhaps it means happiness has gone away I wish you had let me keep it over something as mundane as this taking away my long sought prize possession or rather not I never said I wanted to be happy it was always someone else’s goal to be content with the happenings with what’s going on...
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ColorMe Burgundy
I sometimes find life to be exhausting between the repetitions and constant need for perseverance I often finding myself in a constant state of near narcolepsy I know she wants it but I’m afraid I’ll hurt her I don’t wanna mess up something that’s not supposed to be serious in the first place It doesn’t make sense, I know and can accept that but what I can’t...
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ColorMe 173, 216, 230
So yea I’ll admit it I’m pretty happy things arn’t great probably never will be but things are good I’m content which is good because that is a basis for everything I’ll hold on tightly to this because I have it which I’m beginning to realize is really something I worry that happiness is an end for me that it will end myself because this and me is based on my...
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ColorMe Clear
Alright I’ll admit it I’ve taken advantage of a good thing I’ve taken my outlet the real me the person inside and trying to turn it into profit I’ve become that which I hate In order to do what I love? no, that doesn’t make sense though I’ll admit even this is an attempt but a last attempt at that perhaps it’s a loss of footing while trying to scale a...
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ColorMe Pink
Yea, I could change myself morph into some the type of person you want throw a new facade on become the precious stone you want and sure, I can be the asshole the jerk the substitute for someone you’d want to satisfy what I feel I want or need and I’m not done, still raw in the middle from the last time I got burned I hope you don’t think of me as a game I know I’m fun and...
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ColorMe Gray
Your so stupid, you godforsaken son of nothing lighten up pretend to care do something that shows your human alive of or worth value to someone other then yourself a doppelganger sits alone is in room crying out to reach someone someone he knows can trust they are all busy even I busy no one has time for the over worked and under… well under to spend a night alone nothing for comfort but the...
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Then I spaced for a few months
I decided to do a theme blog called “Color Me Livid” I would write a poem and try to express it in a color. I had a lot of fun with this one, and often went to wikipedia to try to find just the right shade for me words.
Enjoy
December 2011
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A Culmination of Things I'm Feeling Before I Go
Tell me something, anything let me know you exist that your more then just in my head this goes out to all of you anyone who reads cares needs to the writers who failed to the mothers who always regret to the father who made a mistake the kids who were blamed you exist you’re a live or at least… I hope so if your gone, I’m sorry if you never existed, I’m crazy if your...
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A Positive Reenforcement
Certain people and things Make me happy Some things Do not Just because I’m not happy all the time around you Doesn’t mean You aren’t one who does I live life in it’s only sense After being around for a bit You start to realize Just how fickle a tone can be My mood is generally based On a combination Of who I’m with What I’m doing And whether or not I’ve had a good year. So to put it in lemans...
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And the next of kin takes the lead
And I’ll call you a liar If you tell me you love me It’s all a lie and it always was It’s now confirmed I’m gone myself exists On this paper The me you see This body… Is just a shell So don’t believe a word I say The pen is my friend, The paper is our only hangout spot I fail at life I’ll make people laugh At how Just damn pathetic I am Laugh at me Cover me with insults It doesn’t matter You may...
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givemeareason
I can’t take this any more I need to do something drastic I’m getting oh so tired of breathing cut my veins in two so I can die twice as fast Please let my lungs fill with water so I can’t breath any more I’ll leave swiftly I promise you won’t even notice grab my arm and squeeze I miss you dear friend I miss my bed, I miss that who’s never existed tell me why...
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The bug though squashed, is still there
am I real? Do I breath? Is the absence of breathing the proof of existence is the fact that something isn’t there that there isn’t anything in a space proof that there once was proof that existence, though temperamental, exists? just breath in my ear tell me you want me tell me I’m nothing just tell me I’m something Blah Blah Blah I lie a little. I never take sides but both...
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The End of Breathing, There's Life in Death
to keep our selves entertained to leave us too preoccupied to worry or care about the things that really matter we watch others act for the fear of our own ability for a lack of determinism or over abundance of self doubt why do I write? I write for the sake of fallen dreams I write for a lost and almost forgotten hope of achieving more than just self awareness You read for the same reasons I...
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Life Death and the Journey in Between
And I’m just like everybody else I have the same habits and habitual routines as 99.9% of the world I will eat, sleep and fuck up from today ‘till the day I die But regardless of this all, I will still try I will try to eat and sleep in a pro survival fashion I will try and make both my life and others around me better I will aimlessly work towards goals that to even me seem impossible And I...
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To Live The Life of a Tree
Dear Listener, I’ve realized your insignificant And so am I I now understand that who we are doesn’t matter And it never will we are what we create us being creations ourselves we breath based on someone else’s Idea at least in the first place once you create It’s made set in stone and you can’t control what it is or becomes. whether or not it’s alive or dead It roams in circles taking in what...
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My Words Are The Slaughter
This is not a side of me it is me all you see and hear is nothing more then a mirror reflection, a composite reality which is made to fool you I am not pleasant funny or something you’d like I am kind that is probably the most reality you will ever see I am a doll you see a doll I have a soul but it’s masked by flesh it’s the flesh you love and the soul you like for one to exist...
November 2011
20 posts
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Anonymous asked: You're amazing! That is all... Carry on
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Anonymous asked: Austin your poetry is amazing. Seriously. I can't wait to hear some more recent stuff, because writers only get better over time. You've got major talent, sweetheart.<3
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Someone who is overly happy one hundred percent of...
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Anonymous asked: what inspires you to write the way you do?
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Anonymous asked: did you ever think about turning your poetry into songs? like for the band?
I absouloutley love your poetry Austin. You are an extraordinary person with a very thought provoking and quizzical mind to some. I know you are highly intelligent and I can not wait to read more of your poetry.
-Nicole
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Anonymous asked: I love your writing. You inspire so many people, so what's your biggest inspiration?
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anotherfaceinthecr0wd asked: awesome poetry :)
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Why Live, When Someone Else Can?
I’ve spent years of breathing, to realize it was all wrong. If you hold your breath long enough, you’ll forget what it’s like to have air in your lungs but dried lungs have a purpose too for what you lack you become aware of and everyone respects the dominate organ If you hide behind whats strong and mutate from years of shared usage then a strong lung can take the place of two...
Anonymous asked: I really like your new poem. I'm not sure if you write what you're feeling or if you are just extremely creative. If it's what you're feeling, I hope you are okay. Unfortunately, this poem really says so much right now that somehow fits how I'm feeling with a situation in life.
Anonymous asked: Your poems are amazing! (: Would you ever turn them into songs?
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Oh lord please kill me now
You ask me If I’m okay But don’t really want my answer I am tired I am sick I am worse And I’ll admit it Just cut me I swore I won’t bleed on you Just don’t lie, I can’t take that anylonger Tell me you hate me I’m ugly I’m awful That you want me dead be honest and brutal Discourage my ideas Cut me deeper then a knife May words be your weapon I am not the best at anything The one thing I can’t...
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A Scrath Beneth The Surface
like a broken record life spins on a slant giving less then is taken Leaving all with regrets like the disk that spins time goes on to go out The whisper turns to shout and it’s the start of the bout but the victor will not be named he is a sinner they have proclaimed for he fixed what was maimed he is The sinner they have proclaimed
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Sleep Deprivation
I notice each day more and more, just how useless sleep is. more usless then eating, shitting and the actual need to clean up afterselves of all these useless actions that don’t actually progress you further sleeping, by far is the worst How many great storys start with the notion of what people could do if they didn’t need to sleep. I can think of quite a few movies to start. if life...
Anonymous asked: i have a blog where I also write. Not poetry but i write. i thought I was getting better and then I found youre blog and read some of the stuff youve wrote....you are such a good writer, im so jealousssdfkjasdhfklsajdf ;|
I swear in this moment, I can almost taste it.
On this cold morning weather not many thoughts pass through my head it’s as if my thoughts are frozen inside my sleepy pale yet dark complection the cold from the nights gone through frozen more then just a body, but excluded some parts too. I yearn for a life of live houses, I want my home to breath. hundreds of little brains and more then twice the eyes it seems. it’s consumption is...
xxohellokittyxx asked: I never knew you were a poet, Austin. I am too and I just saw the link you posted to this... and... well.. You're amazing. Your poetry really inspires me and you're one of the most amazing people in this world. I wish I could write as beautifully as you. : )
Dear Listener, I've begun
and so it begins, which to those who know only means there’s an end And if every end is a beginning then this will never truly be over just change form like when one’s soul meets one’s body I breath only to only exhale I eat only to shit I sleep only to wake up and I write only to finish I end lines as they start and they only flow from one to another even this story is just the...
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Doing a restart of my poetry
I’ve been writing a bit lately and I figured I’d do a restart on everything to get this blog rolling again. I took all of my poems I’ve posted over the last 3/4 years and set them in my que in the order they happened.
I set my que to post blogs on Monday and Thursday at 4:30. I decided not to edit my poems from their original forms. Because of this a lot of them have really bad...